Wedding bliss/stress

I am sitting here watching videos from out cinematographer and am about to cry. I had a meeting at the venue last night and realize how many more little details there are to plan. I am feeling a tad bit stressed, but also incredibly blessed.

In the past few days I found out that my great aunts and uncles are coming to the wedding and everytime I cry. Even when I think about it I cry. I feel so loved and lucky. I couldn't ask for a better gift or family. Even through the ups and downs I know it will be perfect.

I am completely my parent's child (a perfectionist and detail oriented). We don't do things unless we can do them right. As stressed out as I am, watching those videos I know our wedding will be perfect. Regardless of what does or does not get done it will be perfect! We are so blessed to be so loved and fortunate to have so many people there to support us on our big day! Now its just getting there :)

Updated Nanny Diaries

Looking back I wish I would have wrote more Nanny Diaries to look back on. I am getting so sad to leave my munchkins. Today was not our most eventful day, but definitely entertaining and truthfully one of the reasons I can't wait to have kids. On the way home from karate Miss P asked for gum so I gave her some. She decided she was done, but guess what little lady, we are on the freeway so that means chew it or hold it.  Well Mr H decided he would chew it (nothing like brotherly/sisterly love). Guess what folks, that was short lived and Mr. H was done and wanting to put it on the floor of mom's new car. I put the kibosh on that real quick. But then he tried for the center console. I told him hold it or chew it and he could throw it out when we stopped moving. Well he decides to hold it in his hair. Hahaha yes you heard me right. Smeared deep in his hair. Miss P told me that his gum was in his hair. So I tell him we are going to have to cut that hair out and then shave his head. I know I am a great nanny. Well we get home and I tell his mom and we continue to laugh. He instantly comes in looking for scissors. After ice and a good amount of peanut butter he is gum free and still has all of his hair!!!
It's days like these that I realize how much I will miss them and can't wait to have my own.

Between a Rock and a Hard Place

I know many people love being in this place (hahaha)!!!!  So the joys of planning a wedding have completely gone out the window. We are having issues with some people who are supposed to be close friends. I am feeling completely stuck right now (damned if I do, damned if I don't)  I am stuck in a place someone very selfish has now put me in. I have to choose between something I so strongly believe in and honestly don't want to back down on and hoping B doesn't regret me later for it or throwing what I believe out the window. I am at a loss of what to do. It makes me sad that a person who is supposed to be a big role in my love's life is choosing not to be there. It is an impossibly hard decision to make. And normally I wouldn't hesitate to stick to my guns, but the idea of having him resent me is killing me inside. :/ hoping one side becomes softer.