Bucket List

I (like many others I know) would love to know the ending of my story or at least a blip in the future, but that is never going to happen. When I read a book I just can’t wait to get to the end, but I can never skip a page, paragraph, sentence or word and if I do I go back and start over. In life I always want to be ten steps ahead of where I am. I decided I am going to start enjoying my life and living in the day. I know that this will not happen overnight, but I am going to put my best foot forward and try. I know there will be days when I fail, but I will embrace them. One of my favorite movie quotes is “Life is the messy bits” (from Letters to Juliet). I could not agree more. It is what you make of the failure that dictates your life, not the failure itself.


I’ve decided to make a bucket list. I am hoping sharing all of this will help keep me accountable. There are so many things I want to do and try and why not start now. Some may seem silly or trivial but that’s life! I have always been such a planner, but I realized some of my most fond memories are the spur of the moment ones. This is my journey to see/conquer the world one spontaneous (maybe some planned-because some need a little notice) act at a time. So here we go!!!


1. Go to Boston
2. Go to Michigan/Ohio
3. Go one day without worrying about the future
4. Go on a trip with a moment’s notice
5. Visit Kelley before she moves
6. Have a reunion trip with Kristen and Sarah
7. Get a tattoo with Sarah (and maybe Kristen J)
8. Go on a road trip with no plans of where your destination will be
9. Go to Santorini, Greece
10. Go to Australia
11. Go to grad school
12. Buy a house (hopefully by myself and soon!)
13. Live a day without fear and do something crazy
14. Go to Hawaii and do touristy stuff this time
15. Go to all 50 states
16. Visit every continent
17. Go to Spain to see Gaudi’s La Sagrada Familia
18. Learn to sew
19. Read all the classics
20. Become better acquainted with the state I live in-there are so many neat things to do here!
21. Live in a house I design
22. Design a building that makes a difference
23. Adopt a baby
24. Go to Chicago (now that I’m a grown up)
25. See Grease (the actual musical)
26. Go to the MOMA
27. See a show on Broadway
28. Do something I wouldn’t normally do
29. To be a fun mom (that builds forts, has sword fights, plays dolls, etc.)
30. Marry a man that makes me the best possible person I can be and challenges me everyday
31. Complete a triathlon
32. Learn self defense
33. Ride in a hot air balloon
34. Go parasailing
35. Go scuba diving
36. See the Northern Lights
37. Go to Switzerland
38. Go to the Louvre
39. Go to The Kremlin in Russia
40. Learn Swahili
41. Go to the Parthenon
42. Go to the Great Wall of China
43. Become an awesome photographer (so I can better document these adventures)
44. Go see Le Rev before my friend isn’t in it anymore
45. Get my PhD
46. Help special needs kids for a living
47. Make a positive difference in one person’s life
48. Stick to my guns always
49. Help with a Habitat for Humanity House
50. See Rascal Flatts in concert
51. Go to Monte Carlo, Monaco
52. Teach at a university
53. Decorate my house however I want (I am afraid a man not like it!)
54. Drive down a tree lined street in the fall (with the leaves falling)
55. Be better at forgiving
56. Visit NYC at Christmas time
57. Volunteer for a non-profit/ministry that helps with domestic violence and sexual abuse
58. Go to Vegas now that I am of legal age
59. Keep a plant alive
60. Be better about sending letters/cards
61. Go on a blind date
62. Fly first class
63. Read all the books on my nook and book shelf (this requires my mom stopping buying books!!)
64. Have a job I am passionate about
65. Enjoy my single life while I have it
66. Don’t wish time away-this I am quite fabulous at

This list will hopefully be a revolving door, as things get complete other things may be added…

I also wanted to add some of the cool things I have already done because they are that awesome…

1. Go to the Grand Canyon
2. St. Peter’s Basilica
3. The Coliseum
4. The Uffizi Gallery
5. The British Museum
6. The London Eye
7. The Tower of London
8. Saw Big Ben
9. Went into tons of buildings with dead people buried in them (at least that’s what my mom tells me I said)
10. Jump off a red Double Decker bus
11. The Smithsonian Museums
12. Golden Gate Bridge
13. Pike Place market
14. Empire State Building
15. Statue of Liberty
16. Waikiki Beach
17. Disneyland
18. Buy something on Fifth Ave
19. Go to Tiffany & Co. in NYC
20. See a show in NYC (it wasn’t on Broadway)
21. Go to both Coast of Canada
22. See Niagara Falls (both sides)
23. Go to Africa
24. Go on a mission with some awesome friends
25. Go to Italy and be able to enjoy the architecture
26. Help at an orphanage where I’d someday like to adopt a baby
27. Become an Interior Designer
28. Climb Il Duomo and go inside
29. Climb Duomo di Milano and go inside (they almost didn’t let me because I’m a hooch!)
30. Westminster Abbey
31. Celebrate birthday at the American Girl store in Chicago
32. Road trip to California with my bestie
33. Go to Hawaii
34. Vacationed and did absolutely nothing (woohoo for rainy Ohio days)
35. Visit Sedona
36. Go to Florida for a swim meet
37. Camped
38. Went on a cruise with friends and family
39. Graduated college in three years
40. Road down the Thames and found my dream home
41. Saw the Peter Pan Statue in London
42. Went to Time Square
43. Vatican City
44. Washington/Lincoln monuments in DC (something I don’t think I will ever forget)
45. Stayed in a penthouse suite in Vegas!
46. Resigned from a job I didn’t like
47. Survived a car accident with no injury (the paramedics thought I was ejected and possibly dead and all I wanted was to clean up the messJ)
48. Bury the hatchet with a man I will soon get to call my brother!
49. Visit a castle (Windsor in England)
50. Visit the Lowell Observatory and saw incredible stars 

51. Buy something in Chinatown NY

52. Go through a moving wall

53. Meet a total stranger and become best friends and partners in crime after spending 4 hours together!



I know there are plenty more and God blessed me with incredible parents that have helped provide for these as well as give me sound financial guidance.

Forgiveness

In getting to know new people, I have gotten to know myself better. One thing that has been on my mind is the fact that I don’t always give forgiveness easily. I struggle forgiving the people who I should be most willing to forgive. They are the people who will always be in my corner and I will always be in theirs. I hold some accountable to sometimes unrealistic standards. Some I hold to very low standards and they still come up short in my eyes. I have had such hard time forgiving. I know it hurts me more than them and I carry it around with me until I can say I forgive you. I know I don’t have to be ok with what they do, but I need to forgive them to set both them and myself free. I have experienced things in my life that I hope some people never experience. Through these things I hold grudges and can be incredible resentful. I sometimes blame those who wronged me for the place I am in. I have baggage, but I haven't met anyone that doesn't. It is what you do with the baggage you are given. These things I have gone through make up my story. A story God gave me to help others, but I have been slacking in this a lot lately. I have been so blessed by a gracious God that does not judge me for my short comings but loves me through them and forgives me always. In the place I am in I cannot think of a greater gift.

Just an update

I had a very fabulous and unproductive weekend.  I got to spend time with a friend I haven’t seen in a while and another that I just saw and usually don’t see often. 

Friday I had the kiddos….I got slushy in my hair from a tickle fight, we had a small kitchen fire (noodles), and a five year old swearing.  The oldest and youngest were super awesome, which makes my life easier.  After I left I got to support my friend at a craft fair (she even let me pay).  My favorite part of the night was picking up Ms. Molly to see the Avengers!  So awesome and I am so glad I got to see it with her. She is my movie buddy.

Saturday I hung out around the house (I was slightly productive), I got a late start on my spring cleaning.  I looked at a house. Then off to watch another set of my kiddos.  We had a pretty good night.  I came home and fell asleep on the couch watching a movie.

Sunday I got to spend the day shopping with one of my good friends.  We went to the outlet mall and got new Coach bags and I got some work clothes. We went back to her house and I played with her daughters and ate dinner.  I came home pooped thus my room is still a disaster.

As much as I have to do, it is nice to be able to enjoy time with the people who matter to me. I have a crazy kid packed week.  Today is my only day with no kids until Sunday! But I can’t wait.  I will try to share the crazy stories of watching them.

I have some craft projects planned for this week, so hopefully I can find time to do them and maybe even put them on here.

Nanny Diaries

I am giving a disclaimer for this post….if diapers and such freak you out you should probably stop now. 

Most days with my kiddos are completely fine, but every now and then we have a day like we did yesterday.  I can laugh about them after the fact, but in the moment I think what did I get myself into.  I’ll give you a brief description of the kids…

Mr. W is almost 3! And as stubborn as can be.  He talks up a storm and gives great kisses.

Mr. H is almost 6 and one of the most loving people I ever met.  He’s a lady’s man and can make your heart melt.

Ms. P is 8 ½ and in second grade.  She can be sweet as the dickens and so incredibly helpful or she can be your worst nightmare.

Just like everyone else they have their bad days/moments.  Usually I can roll with the punches, but yesterday was a lot to handle.

I get there and the boys are out back, but Mr. H comes in the house.  I ask where Mr. W is and Mr. H said he was outside pooping.  (Yes in the yard!)  We thought he was joking.  I saw Mr. W so I asked what he was doing and if he was pooping and of course he said no.  Then Ms. P is complaining about being starving!!!  (she ALWAYS says she is starving).   We got in a disagreement as to what is ok for a snack.  Meanwhile, Mr. W comes up and stinks!!!!! So I look in the back of his one hour old swim trunks and sure enough we’ve got skid marks.  We were off to the bathroom with clean under roos in hand. I got him all cleaned up and I was off to play with Mr. H.  I was reading him a book about how to be a gentleman, then he puts his arm around me and said I love you. He somehow started tickling my ear, which turned into tickle war and Mr. W just had to join in.  Well he STILL stunk so I look down and there are poop smears all over his legs!! Mr. H helped me clean up his little brother.  Ms. P has been yelling how she is starving and crabby like her mom (but in actuality her dad) because she is so, so hungry. Thank goodness it’s time to start dinner and we made it through without a hitch.  Little did I know it was just the calm before the storm.  I had Mr. H trying to take out the trash, but it was just too heavy and the bag ripped.  I asked him to get me a new bag (to double bag it), but he said he couldn’t because there was nowhere for the bag to go.  Finally Ms. P got me a bag and I got the trash out. When I lifted it off the ground there was a puddle, which caused the kids to flip out.  I told Mr. H to get dressed for his tee-ball game while I got the mess cleaned up.  As I am finishing up Ms. P came in yelling about Mr. H hitting her and her punching him.  (Can I tell you how much I can’t stand tattling!!). I sent them both to their rooms.  Left Mr. H in charge of dressing himself while I talked to Ms. P.  (I do NOT let Mr. W in their rooms when they are in trouble, which becomes a meltdown).  I talked to the missus and she said she threw the first punch.  I was trying to get to the bottom of the story when she stopped responding, so I left her to continue thinking about her actions.  She got mad and bossy, so I told her maybe she should act like an 8 year old (I don’t always have the best responses, but after the short hour and a half I’d like to see you do better!)  She starts to cry, so I must be on a roll, two of the three kids crying. I went in to talk to Mr. H and make sure he was getting dressed.  We had a good chat about not hitting back and how to put on baseball socks.  (not an easy task) Then I was saved by the mom!!!  But only for about 15 minutes.  Mrs. B and I had a chat about the kiddos behavior.  Ms. P wanted to go to the tee-ball game but had more homework.  She threw a royal fit about it and how she was taught to support her brother, but she wasn’t being given the opportunity to do so.  She hates to read and of course that is what she had left.  She told her mom she’d been working for hours and hours and hours.  At the end of their chat she said she was so mad she could break her tooth.  Obviously that didn’t go too far with mom or me.  So she was sent to her room to clean and read.  Mrs. B took Mr. H to the game and left me with two crying kiddos again!  I got Mr. W on track and we loaded the dishwasher! He was actually a good help and brightened my day. Ms. P started to get out of her funk and was slightly helpful after she finished her reading and cleaning. Oh and Mr. H's game went great! He hit a homer!!!!

Needless to say I ate cookies there and ice-cream when I got home. Don’t get me wrong I love those kids, but they can wear me down.  Now I can laugh about the day and think man we survived! I have little hope for my own kids being the slightest bit civilized, but I want them to enjoy being a kid while they can.  But don’t worry they will not be allowed to poop in the yard…I will draw the line somewhere