What a Weekend

After listening to some most needed advice, I had a fantastic weekend. I actually had a weekend for starters. The kiddos were gone, so I got off work at 3 on Friday! That was a great start. I went home and finished my book, took a nap, then got ready to go out. A group of us went to Mill to celebrate a birthday. I was driving, which is the way I like it. I had so much fun and it was so fun to see my friends have a good time.

Saturday I ran errands with my mom and then went to visit some old pool friends. I miss the pool, but not as bad as I thought I would. I miss the kiddos I got to watch grow up. I got to have a sleepover with Miss Molly! It was very much needed; I missed her.

Sunday I took Molly to breakfast, did a few things around the house; then it was time for Sunday Funday. We hung out by the pool and the boys grilled, got ice-cream and watched a strange movie! It was just so nice to have a weekend. I want to start doing this weekend thing more often. That’s one of my goals, maybe not every weekend, but most. I’m starting to claim my life back.

I did, however, realize that part of the reason I watch the kiddos so much is because my job is not fulfilling me. The kids help fill that gap of doing something you love. But I am only young once and I need to use this time to figure out what is most important in my life.

On a complete side note I always knew I was blessed to have such a great manager at the pool. He and I are super close. I have known him for the last 9 years!!! Super crazy, but he is a huge part of my story. Well not being at the pool this summer makes me sad. I miss him and his effect of making me feel silly when things upset me. He is level-headed, even tempered, fair, has great integrity, and the list could go on. It has been hard on me to not have him around. He is like a second dad to me and I know will always be there for me. It was a blessing and a curse to have him as a manger for 6 years and to know how a leader should lead by example. The curse part is no one really compares to him. I know I will never have a boss exactly like him, but I also know that there are great people out there. I am struggling with where the balance is. I think I hold people to a standard that they will never meet. So I am trying to find the balance and not be unhappy when things aren’t the way I think they should be.

God's Sense of Humor

The other day I was thinking about the backwards ways God has given me things I have desired in my life.  Maybe not the way I thought they would be, but I have definitely been granted a wish I never thought would come true.

The greatest example of this is wanting enough kids to make a baseball team. I know that might sound so ridiculously crazy to most.  I have the GREATEST great aunts and uncles.  There are nine total (aka a baseball team) there are about 25 years separating the youngest and the oldest.  Last summer I got to see all the siblings, but my grandma who is having her own party in Heaven.  To see how close they are and what they would do for each other warms my heart.  I have one brother and we aren't very close. I think I want a whole herd because I love the close knit feeling of being around them. Well guess what I have my own herd.  They might not all be related and none are technically mine even though I sometimes claim them.  I have multiple families who's kids I watch.  When you add them up I am at 10! So I even have an extra.  I had to laugh to myself when I figured out I did get my baseball team.  As badly as I want to have a boatload of children I won't have more than can be provided for. So I like to think of it as God's way of granting this crazy desire.  I would go to the moon and back for any of the kids without thinking twice. I know I am not their mother, but I care for them like family.

I have also always had a desire to marry.  I don't know if that is in God's plans for me.  I know right now it isn't in the near future and that is totally and perfectly fine with me.  In high school I was talking to a guy friend of mine as we were driving down the road.  He said something about the world ending or dying and I said I couldn't because I wanted to be married and have kids.  He jokingly said something about hey lets get married.  He put a ring on my finger and we pretended to be married for the rest of the car ride.  I know it's not super exciting, but it puts me at peace for now.  I know I am not in a place to be married and share my life with someone.  I would love to and hope I get that opportunity, but I know right now I have a lot of self work to do.

I think this is God's sense of humor saying, you get what you want, but it's in my time and terms.  It's such a sweet gift to know he loves and cares for us, but I like to think it is nice to know he isn't serious all the time.  I could be totally off the mark, but this is what I think about my God.

Too Busy Making a Living

Today I stumbled upon this and thought it went really well with my post from earlier this week.  I was also challenged a few weeks ago by my best friend's fiance to go out with everyone on a weekend! He said NO babysitting.  So guess what it's this weekend.  I am kiddo free this weekend, besides going to the movie with a friend and her daughters which totally doesn't count!! I can't wait to share about my FUN and stress free weekend!!!

I also think about the people that I know that work so much and what they miss out on!It frustrates me to no end, until I realized I am one of them but not anymore! This summer is all about change in a good and healthy way!! I don't want to look back and think about all the what ifs!  So here is to the start of many great new things!!!!! And to staying on top of them!!!

Change of Pace

After weeks of a slightly busier schedule followed by a week of pure hectic, my body decided it was done, finished, had enough of me. So no work for me last Friday.  I hate missing work and knew I was missing one of the worst possible days.  I rarely ever get sick, but in 2012 I have been sick more times than I have in the last 10 years combined!!!! It takes so much out of me and to completely recover takes forever.  So why don’t I just rest and not wear myself down.  That is a great question and something I have to keep better track of.  I am still feeling rather pokey and just not quite myself, but I did go to work yesterday and today.  I realize I need to start saying no…not because I don’t want to, but my body might not be able to.  This weekend I had to miss a very important birthday party, which I was super bummer about. I did get to see the birthday girl on her birthday, which was super awesome!

I think God keeps poking me and telling me hey what’s your deal. The problem is the first thing that has been going when I am busy is church.  It is starting to reflect in my life.  I am in a point in my life where I need and desire to go to church.  Thankfully the next two weeks are relatively calm and I can get back to normal.  Woohoo! During these weeks I am going to get my life back on track and on a good schedule.  After that I just need to keep it up.  I want to make time for my friends and things I enjoy.  I am only young once and I want to be able to be selfish and enjoy this time.So here is to starting a fresh and making time for the things most important! (and the dreaded "n word"!! I will learn to say no).